The Struggle with Struggle

The Struggle with Struggle

Am I addicted to struggle? Is my life-long search to find myself a part of this? Definitely! At least up until NOW 🙂  There is a drama and intensity in struggle, I have found. It appeases the Doing-Part of me. Yet, my Being just waits on the sideline, peaceful, calm, allowing, knowing that the struggle is part of the illusion ………….

Whilst in total gratitude for the many authors, songs, personal development techniques that have lead me to this moment, there is, I know a fine line between true Being and struggling to Be. Not quite the same dynamic. I also stand in my knowing that each modality has been a step on the journey and not the journey itself.

I stood proudly in my struggle to be better, to resolve my problems and in my efforts to BE-COME.

BE-COME what? I Am already. The illusion that one needs to become anything is that which creates the struggle. Like a dog chasing its own tail – fun for a while, usually just ending though and leaving one with a few tufts of hair between the teeth and having had a few moments of fun perhaps ……

The White Book by Ramtha, is basically about struggle. The struggle to BE. Well it makes for an interesting Life, but what if interesting is not enough? What if there is more to Life than just interesting? Struggle can be interesting up to a point, however, it can also become the yoke around one’s neck. Struggle stems from the desire to be perfect. Perfectionism is not something in the present moment – it is the brain’s way of keeping us in continual conflict, struggle and polarity.  Why?

Because, the bottom line or underlying energy of struggle is that of lack. Is there ever not enough or the possibility of something more, however, coming from that space of expansion and not limitation? There are always more stepping stones, winding ahead into greater possibilities. Release the struggle means choosing to stay on the same step or take the next ……. one step at a time …….. the time of choice is NOW! Take a deep breath and just breathe in and out ……. there is no answer ……… just BE-ing ………… without struggle …………………

Gratitude and Light.

Trilby

Trilby Johnson, is a Well-Being Facilitator, living and working in and from New Zealand. If any of the modalities that she uses resonates with you, please contact her via her website. 

Body Talk

So, what’s your body talk? How does your body talk to you? Are you aware that your body can talk, not only to you but with other bodies? No, I am not talking about body language or even non-verbal communication, in the context of Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP).  I am talking about the language that our bodies use to communicate with us and other bodies and energies. For many, often their first conscious awareness of their body will be through the sensation of pain. Yes, for some strange reason this is usually when people actually become aware of their physical bodies, other than the thing they have to feed and perhaps wash daily.  Until this time, many people remain totally disassociated with the one thing that is literally under their nose and closest too them. Not only is it ignored, but it is the receiver of much physical, emotional and mental abuse – usually self-inflicted, making it therefore more permissible.

I am very lucky to have always had an amazing, if until recently unidentifiable-as-that, connection with my body. I am not referring to physical appearance here, but rather to my body’s ability to perceive and receive information about situations, way and above that of the recognised biological five senses, although these are how ultimately information is filtered through.  I grew up believing I was over sensitive and that this was a “bad” thing.  Today, my work as an Energy Bodyworker has brought me full circle and to a deeper understanding and knowing of just how aware and conscious my body is. There is no doubt in my mind that my body has a consciousness of its own, separate from me. Just as you are separate and autonomous when out of your car, your car “belongs” to you and goes where you steer it, when you are driving, so our body is a vehicle for our Essence.

My personal breakthough in being conscious of my body as a separate life form, started way back with massage and reiki, however it was a body modality from Access Consciousness, called the BARS, that finally allowed me to fully embrace this concept and knowing.  Applying this process has liberated my body and me from many limiting patterns, both good and not so good. Today, I know that my body has a consciousness of its own and that it is constantly sharing this information with me. It has been me that so often refused to receive it. Unconditionally in service to me, my body created symptoms in its attempt to share vital information with me. For example, experiencing indigestion after eating food that my body did not want or need, pain to indicate where I was cutting myself off from source energy or information, dis-ease to lovingly attempt to get through to me that something I was doing was not in my greater interest.

Today I constantly ask my body what it wants to do, eat, look like and I tell it as often as I can and remember too, how grateful I am for it. My body is an amazing receptor, a great satellite that is picking up information beyond the limitations of my mind and feeding it back to me. I learn a little more each day to be in awareness of this vast sensory information coming to me. I still experience intense energy (otherwise and usually misidentified as “pain”) that is sometime uncomfortable, as my physical body too has to adjust and expand and evolve.  Remember that as my vehicle, my body has its own agenda and requires regular fuel and check-ups. Yes, I am a Spiritual Being having a physical experience, just as may body is a form of consciousness having its own experience, as we dance together.

The basic premise in NLP is that to understand your speaker, you need to understand the language he is using. The same applies to your body. So everywhere where you have misidentified and misapplied physical sensation as good or bad, rather than simply your body talk, would you be willing to destroy and uncreate that now please? What will it take for you to hear and understand you body talk?

Here is an except from Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now”, about transformation through the body.
“The fact is that no one has ever become enlightened through denying or fighting the body or through an out-of-body experience. Although such an experience can be fascinating and can give you a glimpse of the state of liberation from the material form, in the end you will always have to return to the body, where the essential work of transformation takes place. Transformation is through the body, not away from it. This is why no true master has ever advocated fighting or leaving the body, although their mind-based followers often have.”

Have fun and en-joy-ment learning to understand and listen to your body talk!

To Blog, or not to Blog – is this the question?

To Blog, or not to Blog – is this the question?

It has been a while since I felt inspired to write a blog. I found myself waiting for that spark of inspiration to inspire me to sit down and blog away. Except, the spark remained unsparked…….. Until today. Walking along, I found myself remunerating on what to do about not having any ideas to blog about. I could feel the stress and pressure building …… what could I write about ?  Then I had the idea to write about the lack of having that spark. You know, what they term writer’s block?! Those moments when the inspiration dies or is inaccessible. Ever been there? 

You don’t have to be a great or famous author to experience these periods. In fact, in my awareness they are occurring more and more, as we release the old and wait ………. yes wait ………. for the new to begin to show up.  These too are moments of creation. Creation does not just occur in the light. Creation occurs in the darkness. And please I am not talking about good and evil here. What if destruction creates and creation destroys? What if being in total allowance and detachment of all that shows up, regardless, is be-ing the question?

Much gratitude, light and laughter.

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You Are Not Alone!!

You Are Not Alone!!

I don’t know about you, but the last few months have been, well pretty tough. The expression a “Dark Night of the Soul” came to mind several times, however, this awareness did not offer any comfort or further insight. I felt isolated and removed from the world and even my gratitude lists remained sparse if non existant. Even when things did show up, they parted very abruptly and rudely, only adding to the feeling of intense non-belonging. My way of handling this is well, to withdraw even further, adding to and aggravating the issue. And of course, the famous question, “what’s wrong with me?”.
Does this sound intensely familiar? Of course I know this only applies to me!

Thankfully, every now and then something or someone would penetrate my haze, which was annoyingly reassuring. When I actually had these moments and got over myself, I started to hear and observe what others around me were saying and doing and experiencing. And low and behold, I realised that there seemed to be a collective “dark night of the soul” going on. Until I really got the message ………. You Are Not Alone!!

I was waiting for a sign, and it took a while to realise that a sign is not only something that we label and experience as positive. When asking for awareness around the situation, I constantly got that I needed this experience and time to integrate and create. If like me, you still associate action with creation, then You are Not Alone! The only difference between CREATION and REACTION, is the position of the letter “C”. So where have you misidentified and misapplied Action as Creation?

So great, now you may have some insight into the fact that You Are Not Alone, what can you do with this? I believe that whilst there is a collective consciousness and we are connected to this and drawing on this most of the time, it does pay to stop and ask, is this mine? for every thought, feeling and emotion. And sometimes, when it is truly yours, all that is required is to sit with whatever is there.

I was watching Kiesha, Little Grandother’s talk again from November 2010 and was struck by how I had a total new awareness of what she was saying. “We are the One’s We have been waiting for. There is no one else. It is up to us to save the Planet.” So what will it take to change this and what contribution can you be? I believe it is truly knowing, that YOU ARE ALL ONE.

Much Gratitude, Light and Laughter.
Trilby

p.s. I would love to share this beautiful song by Jenn August with you.  If you would like to share the song Grace with your family and friends send them the link http://thesoundofgiving.org/ Grace by Jenn August

Lighthouses

Lighthouses

“Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.” ~ Anne Lamott

When I read this quote, I had one of those visceral hits to my solar plexus. I am a healer and teacher and this spoke volumes to me. In a second, this phrase summed up and revealed my life purpose. All I and any of us ever have to do, is BE. So why do we as humans, spend so much time doing instead of being, or saving boats as opposed to shining?

Nothing has brought this more home to me than the recent earthquakes in New Zealand and Japan. Yes, there has been terrible devestation and loss of life. Yet amazing and wonderous stories of love and caring are surfacing more and more each day. Nature has shown us that once the material possessions and comforts and infrastructure is removed, we are all that is left. Although some do still not “get it” and perhaps it is simply a matter of time, so many people have seen the light in others. I am reminded of that saying, “when it is darkest, then you can see the stars”.

My heart and thoughts go out to those who are in the stricken areas and for who everyday has changed and is now an unforeseen challenge. It is these people who are showing us that it is time for all of us to stand and shine.

Shine bright!